February 2009
i finally
cleaned my laptop. hahaha, it was sooo dirty, but i was just too lazy to clean it. i also didnt have the currect cleaning stuff to do it.
i looooveeee the song ” my girls ” by animal collective. i cant stop listening to it.
today was my cousin juliettes wedding shower. i thought it was going to be boring like the previous ones that i have been too, but i actually had a really good...
“he wanted me to go over his house and watch the super bowl with him,...”
– crystal
January 2009
i have to remember
the things that people do/ or say that bother ME, and REMEMBER that if i do something like that, itll probably bother THEM.
“what lies behind us,and what lies before us are small matters compared to what...”
"It’s only human to wonder why"
i want to say so much right now, but it wouldnt make any sense. i cant really even think of the right words anyway.i typed this entry about 20 times, not one made the bit of sense. the fact that my back hurts really bad right now, isnt helping.
im feeling so many different emotions at once, i dont know what one im leaning towards the most. i want to believe the rational side and be able to fully...
soo..
i watched my first zombie movie today, and it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be, i just know im not looking foward to any future ones haha
i think boys like girls “holiday” is stuck in my head forever. thanks lucas :)
i knew it was you all along.
this is going to be a long entry, because i have to explain to those who dont already know this. but i found something out today that explains soooooo much.
well my grandma died a year and a half ago. she battled with lung cancer for only a year. this all shocked us because we’ve always known her as this strong woman, and when she started growing weaker it was really weird.
anyways, my...
"And when they fuck up, it’s like, why would you...
it takes alot to get over an ex, espessually when you dont want too, but you know you HAVE too. the part where you have to get rid of everything, delete pictures, and pretty much delete them from your life, yeahhh, thats the worst. it feels like a part of you is gone when it first happens, like your mourning over a death or something. my best friend went through that today and i am so damn proud...
“suppose you’re being lied to
would you ever even know?”
– circa survive : the most dangerous commercials
"this is probably the best, not to mention the...
a part of me is torn, and the other half just wants me to go with my feelings.
i think im going to go with my feelings on this one.
i just know i like being with him and thats all that matters to me right now.
saying sorry wont save you.
i hate when someone does something pretty fucked up, and they think because they apologize and say something like ” i really didnt mean to hurt you in anway, im so sorry.” well, thats kind of bullshit. if someone cared enough for your feelings and for who you are as a person, they wouldnt have done such an act in the first place.
i guess it depends on the situation, but im saying this...
"When I wake up early in the morning, lift my head...
ive been going to bed at a decent time and waking up earlier then 12. its such a great feeling. for a long time i would just sleep my day away, and i guess i didnt realize how much of a waste it is. i ate a good breakfast, helped my dad with some chours, then took a nice nap with my puppy.
i dont normally talk about these kinds of things, but i figured it shouldnt matter since this is who i...
"Linger on your pale blue eyes" - The Velvet...
there was not one dull moment last night. it turned out, alot better then i thought it would.
ive finally been sleeping better. ive been taking this natural supplement to help me sleep, called melatonin. its my new bestfriend.
i started my first week of classes. there all alright, i dont really know many people in them. i just need to get through this semester.
im not in the mood to write for...
a long entry
im at my moms work right now. her friend that works with her has been driving me to school. i hate having to depend on people, i only want to be able to depend on myself. but latly, i feel helpless. im struggling right now getting myself back on the right path. i have goals, and i know ill eventually meet them, but right now its very unfortunate where im at right now.
i think out of anyone i look...
"happiness is only real when shared" - into the...
i saw into the wild tonight with crystal and my mom. i mean, ive seen it before, but i guess i havnt payed attention to it the first time. i absolutly loved it. it opened my eyes and i got to see what people take granted everyday. if you havnt seen it, i really think you should. but make sure you pay attention!!
im feeling pretty good about this, but..
im just wondering if its going to turn out the way im hoping
and if it does, i only have a few months to enjoy it
"You may be dying to be with a particular guy but...
im not going to waste my time on someone who hasnt even noticed me, instead im going to put more effort into someone that already has.
whats the point of trying to get someone to find interest in you, it should be an effortless and stressfree thing.
"please send me anything but signals that are...
i really believe, if somethings supposed to happen it will. you shouldnt force it on, but i want to just give this another try.
i want to hangout with him once, and if he doesnt have mutual feelings back, then thats fine. i just want a chance.
im all out of advice.
somethings happening to one of my friends right now, and its been really making me upset.
a guy that she recalls shes inlove with, is constantly critizing her for everything that she loves, her music, her friends, her style. and i feel like, she just sits there and eats it up. hes never satisfied with how she is.just with how she WAS. living in the past is never healthy. hes trying to gain full...